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Friday, October 22, 2010

I Loved You and Your Funky Eye, I Hope You Will Always Know That

Dear Putty, (Pronounced Putty as in Putty Tat)

I am so sad you're gone. I don't know how else to put it but I picture you walking by and making that tapping sound on the floor with your nails as you strut by and I wait for it and I miss it.

I miss how the tapping of your nails as you wandered about during the night used to wake me up.

I never, ever want to put away your bowls of food, even though there is hard crusty food in them because you didn't come to eat it this morning.

I want so badly to fill up your empty water dish.

You were my first pet that was all mine and when we found each other 7 years ago it was serendipitous. You weren't a lap cat, but I think it's because you just didn't like people telling you what to do and I know a little bit about that.

I thought perhaps if I picked you up every day you would get used to being a lap cat but you told me, "Noway," by launching off me every single time and eventually I stopped trying.

But I let you be who you are, just the way I would want someone to do and you liked that. You came out and shared your love with me in your little Putty ways and you purred and let me know you loved me too.

You were prissy and if I gave you a french fry to eat, you had to eat it off a napkin. You were dainty like that.
You and that other kitty didn't get along at all.

Even though I thought you might.

And I want you to know that I felt so bad about how he kept you hiding under the train table for all those months. You were too old to be dealing with that and I'm sorry. I hope you can forgive me for that because I feel so terrible about it.

When he found a new home, you finally came back out and you were able to spend your last couple of months on earth not being chased and mounted and you sunned yourself in the back window again and wandered around unfettered.

You were part of the memories I brought back from New York and from Utah and I will never forget your first plane ride and cross-country trip and what a good traveling companion you were.

I loved that we saw new places together.

And that you got to meet my boys.
I love how you were always so serious and then I would find you in such a weird place.
You cracked me up.

You were like a little old lady and words cannot express how grateful I am that the person I was catsitting for all those years ago didn't call to come get you when she said she would, because I don't think I could have given you up anyway.

We had so many wonderful years together and when I found you in your sleeping spot you looked so peaceful.

I miss you so much it hurts.

I loved you and your funky little eye. I hope you know that.


Bari said...

Oh, Christie, I'm so sorry. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes because I so, so miss Princess, Lucky, and LuLu. I dread the day Squirt has to cross the rainbow bridge. Big hugs to you my friend. I'm sure Putty is purring away and looking down thinking what a cool human you were to kitty sit for all these years.

Karena said...

Aww, sorry, girl! I know it's tough to lose a beloved pet, more so when they've seen you through so many changes. My dog that I'd had since I was 19 just died a year ago -- makes me sad even to recall it. Hugs to you.

Martha said...

Oh, no, Putty! This makes me soooooo sad. All my love and hugs to you right now. I know exactly how you're feeling, believe me. Just know that you gave him such a good life and made him very, very happy. You don't have to clean up the food, or throw away a favorite blanket, or do anything you don't want to do. Give yourself time. xoxoxoxo

AnnG said...

Our pets are a reflection of us...I'm so sad that Putty has left you so sad. I hope that the memories will help you through the next few weeks that are sure to be difficult.

Pubsgal said...

(((hug))). Oh, Christie, I'm so sorry to hear about Putty. I know how you're feeling right now. I got all teary reading this, but then I'd scroll past another picture of Putty and have to smile. Because if "Maxine" (you know, the crotchety old lady on the Hallmark cards) were put into cat form, I swear, she'd look just like Putty. I can see why she cracked you up and brought you so much joy.

eonyc said...

Putty definitely knows how much you loved him. I think Mittens the Great (1985-2001) is showing him around in Kitty Heaven--no doubt about it. I still miss Mitts, and it's been 10 years. I love my Mitzi May and Oliver (thought it took a long time before I was ready for pets again), but there will never be another Mittens...or Putty.

Kirsten said...

OMG, thanks for making me cry on a PMS-ing Friday afternoon, skank. We call them pets, but they are part of our family and always will be. ((hugs))

Dani said...

I just recently had to put my dog of ten years down... I am so sorry for your loss.

Midwest Mommy said...

I am so sorry. Putty was adorable.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry, Christie! Losing a pet is so hard...we've been there several times ourselves.

Putty looks awesome. Funky eye and all.

Melissa said...

I miss my furbabies so much. I'm sure Putty knows exactly how you felt! {{{hugs}}}

Maggie said...

You made me cry. What a good Putty Tat. I am so glad that you got to spend the time you did with her. It's amazing how close we can become with our fur babies. I can't even bear to think about the day I will be in your shoes. It's one of those things, no matter how painful the goodbye, it's worth all the joys that came before. Sending you big hugs. I'm so sorry. :(

Bacardi Mama said...

Oh Christie, I am so sorry. I'm sitting here with tears running down my face because I know just how you feel. Our pets become real parts of our families and we miss them just like people when they are gone. ((HUGS))

*Lissa* said...

:( Sorry, hon!

april said...

I am so, so sorry. I love you.

Anonymous said...

Oh Christie, I am so sorry. She looks like a mean old librarian that has a secret little mischievous streak. (((((hugs))))

Barb said...

Sorry I missed this last week...and I'm so sorry you lost her. ((hugs))

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